This month's theme is a real challenge for me; the idea of using online tools to manipulate images just doesn't excite me that much. But I do like the Hockney-izer, because it illustrates quite nicely how fragmented I often feel.
Instead of seeing myself as a whole I often view my body as a completely separate entity to my mind. This isn't perhaps that unusual, but I also tend to divide my mind into different fragments. This schism manifests in different ways, but is particularly evident whenever I'm feeling negative about something.
Like when I'm meditating and I find my mind wandering onto completely mindless topics. Usually I try to very gently steer myself back on track, but there are times when I angrily think: "why are you doing that? stop thinking about what you're gonna have for dinner, and focus!" The question is who is this "you" I'm telling off? Isn't that me? Of course. But then who is doing the telling off? And as long as I keep having inner conflicts like these I wonder whether I will ever feel completely serene and at peace.
One of the reasons I like yoga is that even at my level I can see evidence of it starting to bring my mind and body closer together, and more importantly because it feels like a form of moving meditation it is really helping to unite the fragments in my mind. Interestingly enough the word "yoga" comes from the Sanskrit root yuj, which means "to join" or "to yoke". Mmmm... there is a wonderful promise there...